wishlist

+to lead a police chase

+to be be swallowed up and drown in tom petty

+to reach out and find your hand in mine

+to witness a strangers life changing event

+to watch the history channel for hours against my will

+to sip tea on the old couch cold feet pressed against the floor

+to string together every moment we've smiled into a movie I'd watch on rainy days

+to conquer my fear of the dark/ghosts/and peeing in public

+a new, ancient rather, polaroid camera +film to capture every moment starting new years

+to run through these streets naked

+a back rub

don't know how to say goodbye

why is it that all the epiphanies come far to late, and by now i'm trapped in this whirlpool spinning, spiraling out of control. i don't understand how it gets like this, everytime.

college is for fools

you'll regret this in the end

.

some think i'm perfect just the way i am
your the only one on my mind
and your standards are to far out of my reach

plagued

nothing like saying goodbye
to notice we're too far gone

where we'll shine

if there were so many consequences to electroshock therapy
i'd get it, forget you all, run away, and leave everything behind
to start over new somewhere warm

in truth, can i tell you?

how sometimes i wish you didnt love me
and music could surround me like water
and college wasnt a necessity
and that he never walked out
and i could look ahead and see whether i'd walk away from this with a smile
so i could pick a path and stop dragging you along.