any colour you'd like = monopoly theme song?

the sun is setting on land covered by a sheet of ice
smiles creep across our faces
and the distance is shrinking.
what a beautiful transition

plasticbags and stray papers float around this city like birds once flew

i dont know how i made it this far without this
i'll never let you in.

aquamarine

anyplace but here
anytime but now

let me tell you now

sunday is fast approaching
missed opportunities come hand in hand with quiet desperation
you are the cage that keeps me from dancing
i'll swim through the riff like a rip tide
and follow the lyrics home

wishlist

+to lead a police chase

+to be be swallowed up and drown in tom petty

+to reach out and find your hand in mine

+to witness a strangers life changing event

+to watch the history channel for hours against my will

+to sip tea on the old couch cold feet pressed against the floor

+to string together every moment we've smiled into a movie I'd watch on rainy days

+to conquer my fear of the dark/ghosts/and peeing in public

+a new, ancient rather, polaroid camera +film to capture every moment starting new years

+to run through these streets naked

+a back rub

don't know how to say goodbye

why is it that all the epiphanies come far to late, and by now i'm trapped in this whirlpool spinning, spiraling out of control. i don't understand how it gets like this, everytime.

college is for fools

you'll regret this in the end

.

some think i'm perfect just the way i am
your the only one on my mind
and your standards are to far out of my reach

plagued

nothing like saying goodbye
to notice we're too far gone

where we'll shine

if there were so many consequences to electroshock therapy
i'd get it, forget you all, run away, and leave everything behind
to start over new somewhere warm

in truth, can i tell you?

how sometimes i wish you didnt love me
and music could surround me like water
and college wasnt a necessity
and that he never walked out
and i could look ahead and see whether i'd walk away from this with a smile
so i could pick a path and stop dragging you along.

forfeit

consumed by your own demons
you wont shed a moment to look up
to save me from drowning
not sure when or why you decided it was okay
i don't know how much longer i can abide

take a hold of my heart mr robert plant

i adore you and your warped world
i love you for who you are,
please yourself
i smile along the way
things will come together
in this warped world

your depression is seeping into my veins

i dont have the courage to confront you.


you're not perfect.


i still love you.

hearts in my pocket

your blog goes nicely with a cup of coffee
and my morning cigaret
this fantasy world i live in,
no more.

your blog sits on my computer screen
while my lungs constrict and my eyes swell
as my brain pulses of our memories.
confined to my dorm here is reality

hollow

first snowfall of the season
i'm equip with my hot apple cider
but empty of your hand in mine,


come home to me.

asphyxiation

someone wise told me to always give what you get
giving 100 % and getting 50 only leaves you half full.
find something new to match,
or revise my ways?

no one gets out alive

you sing me a slow song, and i'll drive you crazy

there's just enough fuel in this tank and power left on my ipod to bring me back to you
i'd drive for miles, ignoring the speed limit, to hold you straight through the night
keep you warm and feed you until you were stuffed, anything to see you smile one last time.

the brain left in my skull keep my feet planted.
my senses are fading and my smile is growing,
i'm counting the days

abort

if you left it up to me i'd take a sledge a hammer to these walls, these posters, these frames capturing these memories, this isn't me, you can't confine me, i was never meant for this institution, i wont be here long. I lay in bed awake. I'm so cold, play my music louder, shut up. Rip these posters off the wall. You were once my favorite band. Who are you now? Who are you to me? On how many other teenager's walls do you hang? What life do you lead? Get out. Break down the walls and fly away to Europe, I'll make a few stops first. My back hurts. I've had enough of this. I'm done. You've infected me, and I wont forgive you if you leave. The funeral on shuffle. beautiful. I'll finish this up now, try to rest. I'm restless but in dire need of sleep, a familiar sight to you, I'm sorry. Let us suffer together, I know of a cure, but I can't be sure .. I can't be sure.

at every occasion I'll be ready for a funeral

on and on

its weird, so weird, all i want is a camera, and backpack full of treasures and clothes, and to travel this world, and you by my side, and change in my pocket, and weightless shoulders, and to go no where in life, but we'll have it all.

out of place

I man my post at this picnic table
the man walks his dog, we exchange nods, and he'll carry on
this has become a routine between bench-girl and dog-man
it didn't take long for us to litter this table with paraphernalia of todays generation
i'll sit here until the sunsets and the sprinklers come on
there's no grass here, the ground is littered with cigaret butts
attempts to fill the voids of those empty days

is this what college is?
cause i'm got getting my intended education.
i know you're not proud.
i'm not here for me.
i wont be here for long

there's a ghost in this room

words are just words
are we waiting for the right ones
what do they mean
words are just words
sing to me.

fall

my birthday coming up
i'm terrified that i'll be spending it alone
its been weeks since we've talked.
not even sure if you've noticed.

i don't understand why this is happening
i miss the rumble of your muffler speeding down my street.

your smile hangs in a frame on my wall
your laugh burns in my memory.

this is a mess
do you care enough to sort it out?

i can't focus on anything
you've always been the cure.

I hate the army

if i could run to the comfort of your blue eyes i would

i havent felt this lost since 9th

i cant even find you

anymore

miscommunication

is it too good to be true?
is that why you're bringing to its end?
i'm not ready for this.
i've given you all i've got,
I wont let you down.

nowhere man

'if i could live my whole life over,
knowing what I know now,
i'd do everything exactly the same -
even the stuff that didn't turn out well.
It all led me to YOU'

Even if you're ashamed of me,
I'll take you as you come.

stitched up

I'm not used to this perspective of the hospital bed
my palms are sweaty my insides are churning and you're stronger than i'll ever be.
between this and that and what more is to come
i'm fucking numb.

i'm giving in.

i'm done.

eating blueberries makes me think of your eyeballs

walls crashing down all around me
your standing still before me
i'm finally sure of this one thing
fires surrounding; scenes from movies
hold me, protect me, rescue me.
I'll never look back.

whether you like it or not

Last night I sat under the cloudless sky
and watched the remains of a meteor shower
with a few of my oldest friends
and some I'd never imagined
We danced, we laughed, we played
in the most natural form
And for once I felt free.

it's coming down

drove for miles today

just to turn around

head back where i came from.

insomnia is getting the better of me lately

I'm not really sure what else to do.

I'm so lost, it hasn't been this way for a while

I don't know how I feel about it, or anything anymore.

I really need some familiarity to come back my way

point me in the right direction.

I'm searching but this headache is blinding.

the only thing keeping me sane is this youtube video on repeat.

ROBBERY

I watch the wind catch the breath of my cigaret

it floats towards the street light and disappears.

my feet pace the water stained pavement

I look to the sky and watch the rain clouds roll in

what the hell I'm doing here?

I wonder if foxes are nocturnal

I should drink more water.

oakgrove and bobdylan.

the bar and dominoes pizza

your gibson and mowing the lawn

boothbay and the bungalow

boardwalks and endless drives

I miss simplicity

and I'm tired of saying goodbye.

i liked you better when you drank

today I opened my eyes under the salt water,
searching for my surfboard,
instead I found the sunlight gleaming through the oceans' surface.

today I approached a man holding a sign reading "free healings"
and held hands with a group of strangers,
as we prayed for my mother.

today I found the meaning behind it all; love.

you stole my heart with your voice.

last night,

you walked away with my fedora

i walked away with a smile.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dw4YwJppiec&feature=related

i'll follow the power lines home

I want to scream it in your face.

But I have the feeling you already know.

and if i don't rise to the surface
remember it was worth it.

come a little closer

what's keeping me awake,

is wondering if this is real.

i've got half a tank and my youth.

they sang of the loss of their Angel.

I thought of the man named Angel,

he gave you the shirt off his back.

you wept and held me in your embrace.

I hope you sleep warm under the cloudless sky tonight, with a smile.

And I hope you remember me, like I'll always remember you.

Keep them warm,

Keep them safe,

Keep their bellies fed.

if you can wait til i get home

so; update.

jimmy from degrassi is drake, and he can walk.

my mother has breast and thyroid cancer.

i hope he can help me get through this, cause i can't do this again.

alana's sleeping over my house.

my phone is lit up like vegas thanks to the ex.

i still don't understand punctuation,

reguardless to your bathtub grammer lessons.

and the 'o' button on my keyboard is sucking at life.

i'll let this night rest with a smile

and let tomorrows sun bake this out of me.

it seems to me that only those who hurt, smoke

it seems to me that your tshirt wrapped around my pillow

falls short to the warmth of you in my arms.

arrest me.

there are more of my friends living in the streets of this town; than city bums.

but then again, most of those bums are my friends.

i'll never be the same

can we stop fighting over this?

can you accept this?

will we make it thru this?

don't go.

The night that never slept

Today I;

attended a Jimmy Buffet concert,

was kissed by an off duty cop,

outran a lightning storm,

smoked an entire pack of cigarettes,

made a promise I would quit,

broke the promise,

listened to the repeated melodies a Michael Jackson tribute on 3 different stations for hours,

and finally let the lightning storm catch up to me.

I miss my best friend.

aimless

Cruising down the interstate

the sun breaks through the clouds

someday I'll catch up to you

And shut this engine down

lie to me

stop saying goodbye, I'm not going anywhere.

seasonal depression

"You tell me time never waits 
That’s okay because I don’t wait for time"

Jack Johnson.

I just don't want this watch to count another 24 hours.

I ran away to the top of the world today

do you ever feel like heading the exact opposite way of which you came?

I'm not sleeping enough

"Don't make me get on the train 'cause this could be the cure.

But I can't be sure. I can't be sure." - Siobhan Mangan

It's hard to turn the wheel with a sketchbook in your lap, and your head in the clouds.

We were from the stars

I want this more than you need me not to have it.

Someone once told me you were no saint.

Im sleepy but I'm restless, and that is just alright.