stitched up

I'm not used to this perspective of the hospital bed
my palms are sweaty my insides are churning and you're stronger than i'll ever be.
between this and that and what more is to come
i'm fucking numb.

i'm giving in.

i'm done.

eating blueberries makes me think of your eyeballs

walls crashing down all around me
your standing still before me
i'm finally sure of this one thing
fires surrounding; scenes from movies
hold me, protect me, rescue me.
I'll never look back.

whether you like it or not

Last night I sat under the cloudless sky
and watched the remains of a meteor shower
with a few of my oldest friends
and some I'd never imagined
We danced, we laughed, we played
in the most natural form
And for once I felt free.

it's coming down

drove for miles today

just to turn around

head back where i came from.

insomnia is getting the better of me lately

I'm not really sure what else to do.

I'm so lost, it hasn't been this way for a while

I don't know how I feel about it, or anything anymore.

I really need some familiarity to come back my way

point me in the right direction.

I'm searching but this headache is blinding.

the only thing keeping me sane is this youtube video on repeat.

ROBBERY

I watch the wind catch the breath of my cigaret

it floats towards the street light and disappears.

my feet pace the water stained pavement

I look to the sky and watch the rain clouds roll in

what the hell I'm doing here?

I wonder if foxes are nocturnal

I should drink more water.

oakgrove and bobdylan.

the bar and dominoes pizza

your gibson and mowing the lawn

boothbay and the bungalow

boardwalks and endless drives

I miss simplicity

and I'm tired of saying goodbye.

i liked you better when you drank

today I opened my eyes under the salt water,
searching for my surfboard,
instead I found the sunlight gleaming through the oceans' surface.

today I approached a man holding a sign reading "free healings"
and held hands with a group of strangers,
as we prayed for my mother.

today I found the meaning behind it all; love.

you stole my heart with your voice.

last night,

you walked away with my fedora

i walked away with a smile.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dw4YwJppiec&feature=related